Bad Liar

Bad Liar

 In the beginning I'd like to start with this scene from attack on titan anime: The speech is divided into two parts: the first part is a conversation between Erwin and Floch, and the second part is Erwin’s motivational speech to his soldiers. In the first part, Erwin tries to make Floch understand the harsh reality of their situation. "Erwin: There's no point standing around. You'll only be showered by more boulders. Ready your horses on the double!

Floch: Be honest, are all of us riding to our death?

Erwin: Yes, we are..

Floch: And since we're dying anyway, you're saying that it's better? Before we even start fighting?

Erwin: I am...

Floch: But wait, if we'll die anyway, then who cares what we do? We could just disobey your orders. And it wouldn't mean a thing, would it?

Erwin: Yes, you're precisely right."

In the second part, Erwin shifts from a pessimistic tone to an optimistic one. He rallies his soldiers to face their inevitable doom with courage and defiance. 

He urges them to express their anger and frustration at the Titans and the world that oppresses them. He commands them to rage, scream, and fight, as a way of asserting their humanity and dignity. 

"Everything that you thought had meaning: every hope, dream, or moment of happiness. None of it matters as you lie bleeding out on the battlefield. None of it changes what a speeding rock does to a body, we all die. 

But does that mean our lives are meaningless? Does that mean that there was no point in our being born? Would you say that of our slain comrades? What about their lives? Were they meaningless?...

They were not! Their memory serves as an example to us all! The courageous fallen! The anguished fallen! Their lives have meaning because we the living refuse to forget them! 

And as we ride to certain death, we trust our successors to do the same for us! Because my soldiers do not buckle or yield when faced with the cruelty of this world!

My soldiers push forward! My soldiers scream out! My soldiers RAAAAAGE!"

You can notice that Erwin really have some guts to say this hitchcockian speech, he's one of the greatest leaders I've ever seen in my life but he was some kind of gambler.

In this speech, Erwin and his soldiers nearly was on the verge of death.

Erwin had a dream, actually he wasn't really want to death or sacrifice his dream but he had to convince his soldiers to make some move regardless the result of that.

Back in time, I used to be the friend who listens to his friend's problems and try to help sometimes.

I kind of like listening to people even it's hard sometimes to deal with all of this ideas and complains.

I'm not a therapist but I have some experience that I use to comfort my friends in their hard times.

Most of the talks between me and my friends were about hope, believe in hope, and about being positive and to be more optimistic and these stuff.

Surprisingly it works, I mean my talks with them worked every time. some of them say that I really did help.

The problem is I didn't really believe in these stuff I talked about: pessimism and optimism, hope, beauty of life..

And it surprising me every time when I realize that it really works with them.

I'm a person who can't see the colors of life, I only see black and white, reality and facts only.

I don't like the expression that people called hope and I don't believe in it .. it's just some kind of mirage.

At some point I felt uncomfortable, I mean my words could really comfort them and help them heal or whatever but what about me? I don't really believe any of what I'm telling them. I felt like a hypocrite to the extreme, but I still continued to help some people.

I feel bad right now because I stopped helping but I can no longer say things I don't believe in. I look at myself badly when I realize what a lying hypocrite I was. I hope they will forgive me for saying these things one day... Life is not worth clinging to.