I

I'm scared to be myself

But that's the only path written for me

I wish to stray, to find my own light 

But I drag myself back 

I find it hard to breathe being myself 

My personality is the hand that is wrapped around my throat

No matter how much I fight the hand only gets tighter

I wish I was a new person

Someone who isn't as despised

Someone who doesnt hurt those around them 

Someone who isn't me 

But I'm stuck with who I am

And I'm far from accepting myself

So I'll pretend I'm someone else

I'll pretend that I despise myself everytime I look in the mirror

The Earth shattering realization that I am who I am 

I hate myself but there is no one out there that I can be