These Bad Days

These bad days keep getting worse and worse...it's like life's got me under a terrible, never ending curse...called every name in the book...threat after threat...I feel so alone in this world... I'm someone nobody gets...I feel like I don't have a voice...I feel like I'm not in control...like I don't have a choice...I always came second...if not last...all my life I was in my brother's shadow...all their eyes were on him...and I wouldn't get a second glance...I might as well have been invisible...because that's how I felt...how I feel...god damn it, I wish this wasn't real! This life...this pain...I just wanna be happy again! I take it day by day but it all feels the same...the same pain...the same hurtful words...I ask myself the same question as each day goes by...how long is it till I can finally say goodbye...?