Gerascophobia

(n.) the fear of growing old 

And what if I don't end up 

like my sister?

Married, mother, happy. 

What if every second 

is just a passing reminder

that my life is never going

to get better 

than what it was before?

What if I never fall in love again?

What if it'll only ever be just me?

I don't feel at home in my twenties,

and I won't feel at home when I die.